I left her there, okay?\u00a0 I did.\u00a0 We argued; it wasn\u2019t the thing to do, but it was a long time ago.\u00a0 Being young and angry, I left her there.\u00a0 Now I’m tired of thinking about it. The incompetence of the police isn’t my responsibility.\u00a0 When I walked away, she was still shouting at me, so yeah, she was fine.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
We weren\u2019t an item, really.\u00a0 Sure we\u2026 you know.\u00a0 It was convenient.\u00a0 I can\u2019t help what she wrote about me in her diary, she didn\u2019t treat me like she\u2026 you know, loved me.\u00a0 Let’s face it she couldn’t pronounce the word, I’m surprised she could spell it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
But listen, it\u2019s been a good twenty years and I\u2019ve moved on.\u00a0 I don\u2019t know what else I can tell you.\u00a0 You know I was almost married once. \u00a0Then I ended up on some news brief on the anniversary of her death; the 10th, I think.\u00a0 My fiance stopped coming around.\u00a0 I even picked up the phone once and called.\u00a0 She didn\u2019t return my call.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So nobody\u2019s as sorry as me.\u00a0 Five years ago I hit a low spot.\u00a0 I lost my job, and the bills were piling up.\u00a0 I thought, what the hell, I\u2019ll call the guys in polyester suits and confess.\u00a0 But damn it, I didn\u2019t do it.\u00a0 I think that even my parents wonder if I killed her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
One more time?\u00a0 Sure, you\u2019re all liars, but okay, one more time, I’ll tell you all about it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
It was the \u201890s, we were big into music.\u00a0 There was a sizeable crowd, the DJ was awesome and the music loud.\u00a0 I thought at one point we were going to orgy; the place was that high and happy.\u00a0 Around 3 AM we were all spent.\u00a0 She didn\u2019t want to leave, but I had to get home and pretend I wanted to go to church.\u00a0 It was her car, you understand.\u00a0 She wanted to stay and\u2026 you know.\u00a0 But I was tired and we could do that anytime.\u00a0 I told her so. She freaked.\u00a0 She started yelling at me, I was nothing but a user and a hypocrite and she would tell my parents.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Laughing in her face, I told her to go ahead – tell.\u00a0 My parents would just pray over me and make sure she never came near me.\u00a0\u00a0 They were probably waiting for me at the front door.\u00a0 I was seventeen years old. What could they do?\u00a0 I told her I would call the police if she wanted to get nasty. She was the 21-year-old.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I was a reprobate: Not proud of everything I’ve done or said to people. Still I didn\u2019t kill her.\u00a0 I walked away with her screaming at me and that\u2019s the last I saw her.\u00a0 No, I didn\u2019t catch a ride; I walked home.\u00a0 And yes, it was quite the hike; I didn\u2019t get home until 6AM.\u00a0 Went to church like a good boy with my parents and they knew nothing until Wednesday when the police ended up at our front door.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s been long enough now that I feel sorry for my Dad. Big Baptist congregation and his one and only son in the middle of a murder investigation. College went out the window because of the lawyer\u2019s fees. The congregation slowly drifted away. He\u2019s a bitter man. I speak to him and Mom once a week. They don\u2019t ask me to visit. My Dad tells me he\u2019s praying for me. I don\u2019t know how to pray. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Listen, I wasn\u2019t even charged.\u00a0 Some think I did it, others say no way.\u00a0 Those who vouch for me are or were church going little hypocrites like me who sneaked out of their parents’ house to smoke pot, have illicit sex and listen to beats.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Who ever killed her decapitated her, so they meant it. A messy way to end someone. Not my style. My style is to just walk away. Too bad she couldn\u2019t learn to do just that. Wasn\u2019t in her though, she always held her ground and screamed. Maybe who ever did it felt he needed to quiet her down somehow. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Come on, man, it\u2019s a joke.\u00a0<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I left her there, okay? I did. We had an argument; it wasn\u2019t the thing to do, but it was a long time ago. I left her there. I\u2019m tired now. I can\u2019t help the police incompetence. When I walked away, she was still shouting at me, so yeah, she was fine. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[6,19],"tags":[11,21,10],"class_list":["post-932","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-short-story","category-writing","tag-amwriting","tag-shortstory","tag-ww"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"amp_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lydiaink.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/932","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lydiaink.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lydiaink.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lydiaink.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lydiaink.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=932"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/lydiaink.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/932\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1909,"href":"https:\/\/lydiaink.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/932\/revisions\/1909"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lydiaink.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=932"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lydiaink.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=932"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lydiaink.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=932"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}